After looking at the last photos I took of my Mom, I went to my text history next.
The last text my Mom sent me ended with "Praise God forever!"
I will, Mom.
The one before that, she ended with "God is still God, don't forget that. He will finish what he began."
I believe you, Mom.
The one before that was this message...
Yes He is, Mom.
I may not always have known how important each and every thing she said to me was at the time...but I am clinging to these final texted words tightly tonight, and I will NEVER, EVER forget them. She was listening God. I am listening Mom.
Your faith was always inspiring Mom. You and Dad, (and then later, you and Bill), have always modeled Christ-like faith and repeatedly bore your servant's hearts. You have fed the poor, opened your home to foster babies, saved lives, come alongside the broken, brought people to Jesus, given the shirts off your back and the food out of your cupboards. You didn't just give to all of your children and grandchildren, you gave to friends, and complete strangers, alike. You taught us well. I give today, because you gave all of my life. I pray to God that my children have learned the same. What a legacy to leave.
Tonight is one of the hardest night's of my life. But I am repeating to myself, again and again... "God is still God!" and reminding myself to "Praise God forever!" even now, when this hurts like hell...
Carrie, my heart breaks for you and the pain you are experiencing. I have been so amazed by your grace and courage throughout this journey with Rowan and I see now where this comes from. It is a testament to how your children learn through your actions. Your Mom was clearly and amazing person who raised an amazing daughter and mother who is raising some incredible children. My love and prayers are with you.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss, Carrie. Your Mom was an incredible person, from the words you posted about her. I am lifting up you and your family in my prayers. I pray for peace.
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