"Our Little Trooper"

"Our Little Trooper"
"Let me live, that I may praise you!" Psalm 119:175

Thursday, October 5, 2017

Back to the Empty Cross... we found "Hope"

Today Rowan's home nurse of 7+ years, Cindy, and I went to Kerrville so I could show her the Empty Cross.  I know I've posted pictures of the cross before, but it was such a beautiful day and we shared such a special time there, that I decided to share the ones I took today too.  Rowan was all around us...even from the moment we walked up...

As we walked up the hill towards the gardens, path and sculptures, this is the first thing that caught my eye...

We walked the path toward the new sculpture and it was so beautiful.  

Everything there is.

One of the first prayer rocks that I noticed along the path was this one... something Rowan was known to say often.

There were hearts everywhere, as always.  Rowan always pointed out hearts... even in a stains or wounds.  Now I find them daily.

We found the stone plaque that the Guardians of the Children had made for Rowan on their memorial ride out there months ago.  The Texas sun has weathered it, but it still looks beautiful, and is so special to our family.

Cindy and I each wrote our own prayers on several rocks, and placed them along the path with the others.  Here are just a few of mine...

A fellow transplant buddy Luke is home on hospice spending his last days surrounded by his loved ones.  He will soon be in Heaven with Rowan.  Please pray for his family as they pass him into God's hands.

Two of Rowan's angel friends have birthdays this weekend.  Please pray for their families, as special days like birthdays and holidays are so hard for those missing loved ones.  They both died on the same day, May 19th, but Chrissie passed 8 years ago and Olivia just 4 1/2 months ago.

We also saw butterflies flying all around us...Rowan's favorite color, orange.

If you have never been, I highly suggest you drive to Kerrville sometime, and visit The Empty Cross.  It is peaceful, beautiful and powerful.

Thank you for going with me Cindy.  It was so special.  I love you.

And Rowan, we both love and miss you so much too, but thank you for the signs today...even the literal sign "Hope".

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Yarn giraffes, paper mache bowls, and joy...

I realize that a lot of my posts lately have been about me spending time with Rowan's dear friend Charlotte. I have a lot of other blog posts to catch up on too, but for some reason the Charlotte ones are the easiest for me to get done.  Tonight I realized that reason they are easy to write, is that when I spend time with Charlotte, I experience joy...and quite honestly, joy has been hard to come by since Rowan passed.  I also feel Rowan's presence when I am with her.  When she laughs, I hear him laugh with her.  When she encourages me sweetly, I hear him encouraging me too.  It is a beautiful thing. 

Today, we had another one of our playdates.  We did two art projects this time.  We did not finish either of them.  But we both agreed that that was fine, because it meant that I had to come back even sooner to finish them both.  As always, we had a blast.  We laughed, we shared puns, we talked, we planned our next projects, etc.  The pictures below will show you how precious she is, and how priceless our time together is.  I don't know what I'd do without it right now.  I am so grateful for her presence in Rowan's life, and my own.

First we started a paper mache bowl...

Then we realized that it needed to sit for 5 days before it hardened and we sealed the inside of bowl to complete it.  

So, we started a second art project, yarn giraffes...


She made the small cardboard giraffe and I made the larger one.  Charlotte said that they could be her and Rowan.  Then she put one of Rowan's memory cards by them and took a few pictures.  I love how we talk about him every time we are together.  Not in a sad way...we just talk about him.  About his favorite color (orange), his favorite animal (hippo), different places Rowan and Charlotte spent time together (Build-a-bear, the Zoo, the Do-Seum, the hospital play room, etc.).

As I mentioned, we didn't get time to finish the yarn giraffes either, but I think we were off to a pretty good start.

When it was time for me to leave, she reminded me that we needed to do our traditional "selfies" and her "crazy face" pictures.  Then we threw the yarn all over our faces!

She wanted me to do the crazy face picture today too, so of course I did...

To say I love this precious little girl, doesn't even say enough...sweetest thing ever.  I love spending time with her.  I hope she never gets tired of me, because I need her in my life.

Love you Charlotte!
See you soon:)