It was a very rainy day, and I debated driving in to SA, but Rowan really wanted to go, so we did. Of course, Rowan noticed that once we arrived at the cemetery, the rained stopped, and it held off the entire time we were there.
He told me that when he saw Jesus at Jalene's funeral, Jesus was so bright that he was almost fuzzy, so he was trying to get a better look now. I asked if he wanted to say a little prayer there, and he said yes. He stood up, held Jesus' hand and prayed the sweetest prayer. A prayer of thanks.
He thanked Jesus for taking such good care of Julian (and Rowan's other friends in Heaven), and told him that he knew they were happy and having a great time. He thanked Jesus for letting him visit them in his dreams. Then, he asked him to please help their families during the holidays, to let them be happy not sad.
He never got to meet Julian when he was alive, but knows his Mom and Dad now, has dreamed of Julian on multiple occasions and has given messages to his parents. Then, he talked to Julian...just talked to him, like they were old friends.
Rowan brought his Captain America shield with him (the one that Rowan had first), and he showed it to him. He told Julian that he wanted him to see it, because Julian's parents had also given Rowan the one that used to be Julian's. He wanted to show him that they both had one. He thanked Julian for letting him have his shield too, and told him he would take good care of it. Then Rowan looked up at me and said, "He really does see this, because he's looking down on us right now." More tears...
Finally, I told him, that I hoped I went way before him, that I hoped I would be up in Heaven waiting for him with open arms. To which he replied, "Okay, but if you don't, just promise me...happy thoughts."
I know, as difficult as it was, that I will always cherish these photos of Rowan today, studying Jesus' face...
and holding his hand...
This is what Heaven must look like.
I hope that brings you comfort, as you imagine Julian doing the same.