Tuesday, September 16, 2014
"God must have big, Big, BIG plans for me."
After Rowan's hematology clinic appointment today, the local doctor called and left me a message letting me know that some of last weeks special test results had come back. These labs were ordered by the specialists in Seattle, because of a "clue" they found on some of Rowan's earlier tests. The were highly sensitive, very specific tests. Unfortunately, the results were not normal, and indicated a definite problem. However, the local doctor said he would have to forward the results to Seattle to see what the assessment and recommendations would be. I immediately emailed Seattle, and basically asked "OK, what does this mean? And what do we need to do?" I got a response back very quickly, but it wasn't what I was looking for. The doctor explained that this was "new uncharted territory", that this was not typical, and that I would need to bear with her as they tried to figure Rowan's now further complicated, unique health issues.
My flawed, adult, human reaction was frustration, worry, impatience and concern. Rowan could sense that, and asked me what the tests said. I tried to explain the very little that I did know and communicated what the doctor had said about us being patient while she tried to figure it out. And he said, "So, I'm so different, so unique, that the best doctor in Seattle...no probably in the country, doesn't know what to do about me yet? Doesn't understand what's wrong with me?" He started shaking his head from side to side. But then I noticed that he was smiling...like REALLY smiling... eyes wide open, jaw dropped, in awe, smiling. Confused by his facial expression, I said, "What are you thinking Rowan?" His response humbled me instantly. He said, "Wow. I'm just speechless. God must have big, Big, BIG plans for me!"
I know I say it all the time, but this kid teaches me how to be a better person every single day!
I hope you all treat your trials like a badge of honor like Rowan does. I hope you all realize the big, Big, BIG plans God has for you too.